Hmmmm...i wonder how long since i updated my last entry...hehe... mehhh...who care? Its not that anyone would read my blog...in fact, i hope there are no one reading my entries due to my sole purpose making this blog which is for the future me will read this and dont forget who i am... =)
Anywy, lets get started...
Overthink....this problem has been haunting me for the past 5 years i guess (now i am 21)... i think other people do hve this problem too but they just keep it for themselves...however, after ive been thinking, there are pros and cons for overthink (wonders if problem hve its pros..lol)... well i guess for me at least...
Pros: sometimes, when i overthink, i will think of everything...well i guess im kinda multitasking...hehe... but trust me, u really dont want that... if there is any problem, i will think of all possible solutions, including something which usually dont happen in real life...==... however, it really help me facing those problem...i am becoming more prepared...(bangga kejap)... another pro is that im capable to plan and predict what to do next...
Cons: it is very, very, very tiresome... i will exhausted after series of overthink...i also tend to ignore people surround me...(which i am really3 sorry for that)...but i couldnt help it... T_T besides, i will get dizzy and lose all my 'good mood'.... i tend to think thing that are useless and not suppose to happen...it is literally causing depression...i also think that this problem cause my 'people pleaser' attitude...
U know, after these year ive been enduring this bullshit, i get used to it... maybe i cant hide it but at least i can cope with the feeling...ive been trying hard to remove it...i try keeping myself busy, try to relaxing my mind and share it with others...but it just help temporarily...=(
There is a story which i couldnt forget...one day, i faced a problem and keep thinking about it....i hve listed all possible solution...but my mind keep thinking... then, my good friend try to help me.. she ask me to tell her what is troubling me...after i telling her everything, she came out with several solution to my problem....but at the end i keep refusing her help..i dont even accepting her opinion because it has crossed my mind earlier... then, it get worst... i try to keep silent to prevent me from doing something stupid... however, my friend, on the other hand, feels sad and guilty because she cant help me... i feel terrible and shame on me...
After that accident, i started thinking why its not working...then i realize, u cant help an overthink person by giving him more idea to think of... the right way, i think, is to distract him/her, make them feel calm and relax...it does help me....
I wish i could tell her that...now i wonder if she still feel the same way.... i hope future me will never forget this... it really affecting my personality...
P/s: ignore the spelling and gramatical error... i am improvising my self... i am really bad in english... sorry
